Some days make you feel like trash, and other times it’s no better but doable. But it’s more complicated than you imagined it to be. Every second it feels you are losing your shit, and you can’t help it. Never in your worst nightmares, you ever thought you would go through a phase that would make you not proud of your own self. So you like to give unreal hopes to feel better, which never lasts long. It’s the first time you are out of words to explain how it really feels because it’s terrible. Not exaggerating, but this is the worst you have ever been.
All the work done on yourself seems to have gone in vain. You feel like you are losing a bit of yourself every day. The things which made you feel closer to yourself end up making things worse. Everything seems to have found a way to bring back someone who isn’t around anymore. Eyes wet with tears and heart filled with despair, that’s how it has been for a while now. All the incidents have made you hypersensitive to a level where it’s just a step away from an emotional collapse. Don’t know who is at fault, you for letting your guard down, or still you for naming compromises as sacrifices in the name of love.
Someone said, ” All is fair in love and war,” but love frees us never weighs us down. You should know something that doesn’t matter how downhill everything will get; you can, and you will fight your way out by yourself because that’s how you were born. Accept the fact that somedays you feel more hurt and unheard. Self-Validation might not seem easy, but in literal terms, it means to let yourself feel the feelings when you are healing from your past. It doesn’t mean you deserve the way you are feeling; instead, it means you are accepting it, and you are at peace with it. No one else decides how something feels for you. It’s you. You need no one to tell you that it’s okay to feel a certain way. You have to heal yourself from your trauma. Because you are stronger than you think.
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